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Monday, December 29, 2008

I have so much to say ...

yet I'm too nauseous to type it all out. But I will, I promise!

First, let's get the news out of the way. We had our ultrasound this morning. 3 sacs still there. 3 fetal poles. 3 beating hearts. I think the three adults in the rooms may have had our hearts stop for a second.

So. That's the deal. I'm pregnant with my sister's triplets. She's going to owe me so much. But right now I really just want her to take the Boots away and never give her back, as she is driving me up the wall. But that's a story for another day when I feel better (come back in 10 weeks, or so.)

I'm excited. I really am. I'm also scared. I'm also so anxious for this to go quickly so my sister can be done with her cancer treatment, and I can hand over her babies.

Thank you all for checking in on me. I will do my best to put up a real update this weekend ... with pics and everything!!


Monday, December 22, 2008

An unexpected result

3 sacs. 2 of them with fetal poles. Oh.My.Goodness.

Ya know, I was feeling pretty nauseous this weekend. Jake was getting over a stomach bug, so I thought maybe I caught it. Yeah, I didn't. It's called pregnancy. I had a feeling since the morning sickness started earlier than last time that it was at least twins. But trips? Woah.

One of the sacs was empty, so the doctor said that either that one stopped developing, or it was just a late implanter and we'll see if in there next week. I haven't yet decided how I feel about trips. I think my sister is extremely excited, and pretty damn overwhelmed. I know that's how I feel.

Next u/s: Dec 29th. We should see heartbeats at that point. I can't wait to see Ant and Chrissy's face when they see/hear them.

I'm so tired. I know this post sucks. But I gotta go to sleep!

I will write more later!


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

A lesson in commenting ...

I love my family-in-laws. Truly I do. They are great. And they really seems like an intelligent bunch. But ... They can't comment. They can't figure it out. They don't know how.

My mother-in-law has been trying to comment for like 2 months. I love you Robin, but seriously, what's going on? Carol, you always send me the sweetest emails, why can't you figure out how to comment??

I just have to laugh every time I get an email from one of them saying "I tried to comment on the blog, but I couldn't figure it out ... "

So, here is a lesson in commenting. It's so ridiculously easy, that you should all be ashamed of yourselves.

Underneath each post, you will see this:

Start by clicking on the comments link. This will take you to the page where you can leave a comment.

Write whatever you would like in the big box under "Leave Your Comment". Simple so far right?

I think the confusion lies in the "Choose an identity" portion of the comment leaving. But its really easy. The option you want to choose is Name/Url.

All you need to do is enter your name in the name field. The URL field is optional and doesn't need to be filled in. And then click the "Publish Your Comment" button. That's IT! Really! That's all you need to do! So please please please leave a comment now!

I hope this service announcement has helped you all. And if you still can't figure it out, you are useless. I give up! 8-)

On the "How am I feeling" news, I'm feeling fine. I had a 2 minute wave of nausea in the supermarket the other day, but it passed pretty quickly. With the twins, I didn't get sick this early either, so next week will be a lot more telling.

This week could possibly go down as one of the slowest in history. I am DYING for the ultrasound on Monday. I want to see how many are in there. I want them to do my bloodwork and see that all my levels are still where they should be.

Little Boots is cute beyond words though. I told her that Chrissy's baby is in my belly, so she rubs my belly and says "Chrissy Baby". It's the cutest thing ever!

So, to recap, leave a comment, it's easy. This week is slow and I'm annoyed. And Boots is smarter than anything and as adorable as ever.


Saturday, December 13, 2008

And the results are in ...

I'm pregnant. Or really, WE are pregnant I suppose is the right way to word it.

Wow, right? It's some wonderfully amazing news. Let me give you the run down of the last few days.

Thursday morning (9dp3dt) I decided to pee on a stick (going forward to be known as POAS). I just couldn't wait anymore. I needed to know what was going on in my body! I got a positive result pretty quickly. The plus sign showed up on the ept. Woo hoo! I took the test at 6am in the morning and had no one to celebrate with! I woke up DH and told him, and he was very sleepy and happy and congratulated me and promptly went back to sleep. I, on the other hand, could not sleep.

The problem was, the test was expired. It was from way back when I was trying to get pregnant before the twins. So I didn't know if an expired test was ok. I did a bit of googling, and sure enough, they say you can get a false positive on an expired test. So Thursday at lunch I went and bought more tests.

*****Warning! Possible TMI to follow.*****
So that afternoon at work I went to the bathroom, and had some reddish/brownish discharge. I immediately freaked. Even though I had been through this before. Even though this EXACT same thing had happened during my cycle with the twins. It's called implantation bleeding, and the doctor said it's completely normal, and that brownish blood is fine. It means it's old blood. It's the red blood that you must be nervous about. But still, no one wants to see any kind of bloody discharge, old or not. It totally messes with your head!

So, that night I POAS again. But this time, it was the new test. Again, I got a positive. I was feeling much more optimistic.

Friday morning I woke up and took the ept Certainty test. It's a digital one. It doesn't have a plus sign, it either prints out the word "Pregnant" or "Not Pregnant". We got a pregnant!

So, what to do? I went to work, and called my sister. We chit chatted, and she was pretty much completely convinced that the cycle was a bust. She didn't have any faith and I just couldn't listen to her sound so dejected, so I told her about what I thought was implantation bleeding. It definitely perked her up. And then she said "Ok, I can't wait, let's do a pregnancy test tonight!". After going back and forth for a few minutes, I told her I already had done 3, and they were all positive.

So, I called our clinic and I asked if I could come in for an early beta. Oh, and here is where I admit our little lie. My beta was originally scheduled for Sat Dec 13th, not Monday the 15th. We didn't want to announce anything until we not only got a positive beta, but we had a properly doubling beta. So we decided to say we would find out Monday, knowing that actually the 2nd beta would be that day.

Our clinic told me to come in. This was 10am Friday morning. I left work and ran over there and did my bloodwork. Two hours later the call came in. Positive beta, with a great number, 210!!! That's a great number for 13dpo (days post ovulation) or 10dp3dt. I had my beta with the twins a day later (at 14dpo) and it was 389. So I'm hoping beyond hope for twins!!

So, if you are following along, you will realize that our second beta was actually Sunday. It's always two days after the initial beta. So, that happened yesterday. And our second beta was 462. So we doubled! Woo hoo! We are cautiously optimistic! It's hard to be an infertile, both for me and Chrissy, and feel like pregnancy test = take home baby/babies in 9 months. Infertility kinda takes that away from you. It's a constant worry. A constant waiting for the next step.

But for now, for today, I'm happy. Our first ultrasound is Monday Dec 22nd. We are all excited to see what's going on in there!

So, I'm physically pregnant, but Chrissy is the real one who is expecting a child. There is a shirt that I think I want to buy and wear around. It says "Her bun, my oven". Chrissy, I want to promise you that I will do everything in my power to protect your bun/buns and keep them safe for the next 8 months! I love you and I'm so excited to be on this journey together!

And thanks to you all for your support guys! I'll be updating with more info as I get it!


Sunday, December 7, 2008


So, that stands for 5 days post a day 3 transfer. Not much to report. My boobs are sore. I'm crampy. I'm tired. All pregnancy symptoms? Sure. But also results of the Progesterone I'm taking. It's too early to know anyway. Gosh, why is time going so absolutely slowly??

My sister is doing ok. She was out of work all week because she was so uncomfortable after her retrieval. It was like her ovaries were the size of melons, and she felt like she was full from eating a big meal non-stop. It sucks! I wish she would feel better soon. The poor girl has had such a long road. Luckily she didn't get OHSS as bad as she has in the past, but it's there a little bit, and it's still really uncomfortable. It's never easy, is it??

I, on the other hand, am currently enjoying a VERY quiet house! Friday was me and DH's 5 year anniversary! I love him SO much. We got married 5 years ago in the middle of a freaking blizzard. And no, I'm not kidding. There was like 2 feet of snow. In New Jersey. on Dec 5th. It never snows that early. But OF COURSE it did. We watched our wedding video on Friday night, and it is still one of the best days of my life.

So my parents took the twins for us for the weekend. They picked them up Saturday morning around 10am, and we will be going to get them on Monday night. Woo hoo! Yesterday we had a totally lazy day of watching Christmas movies, and taking naps. Then we went out for a nice dinner last night. Today we are planning on going to the movies (Twilight, I'm excited!) and then going out to lunch. Just like the pre-kid days. Although, I'll be honest, I've already called my parents like 12 times. hehe.

Ya know, 20 months is not a good age to try and do a Christmas photo shoot. UGH! We tried yesterday morning before they went with my parents, and they really don't want to sit on a chair together. They also don't want to smile, don't want to hold hands, don't want to stand anywhere near each other, and generally seem to not like each other or us. Fun.

So, here were the BEST pics we got from our first photo shoot, about a week ago. Not so bad from Moop.
The Moop

But we got this from Miss Boots. Not a smile in sight.
Miss Boot

And when we tried for a picture of both of them, we got this.
Double Trouble

So, at this point, Mommy threw in the towel and said "Screw it, we'll try another day." So yesterday was that day. We got this adorable picture of Miss Boots. Please try and ignore her less than ladylike sitting position.
Unladylike Boot

And we got many cute ones of our man, who was being very cooperative. But I guess he liked the way his sister was sitting.
Unladylike Boot

And then we kinda got one of them together. We realized that they were unwilling to share a chair, so they each needed their own chair. Problem was, one pic she was smiling and he wasn't. The next, he was, but not her. So Mommy used Photo.Shot, and came out with this. Yes, they are smiling at Elmo on the tv and not us, but really, whatever.
Unladylike Boot

And then just a few of my favorite pics taken over the last few days. Here are the twins with Daddy getting ready to watch Rudolph. They LOVE Rudolph and Santa and run around the house saying their names.

Here is one of Moop just being a super goof.

And this one makes me laugh because it looks straight out of a rap video. She looks like she is throwing gang signs or something!
Rap Stars

Thanks for stopping by. Monday the 15th can't get here quick enough!


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

And away we go!!!! -- UPDATED

The day is here. Transfer today at 2pm. Holy Crap. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, and more than anything else in the world, I want this to work.

I'll update after transfer to let you know how many we put in, and when the pregnancy test will be!

Wow. I'm about to go get pregnant!

Ok, I'm home now. Laying in my bed relaxing and the DH is off getting me some dinner. Love him. Transfer was fine. Although seriously, I hate the whole full bladder thing. I HATE IT! This time I was smarter than at my transfer and paced myself a little better. I was still REALLY needing to pee when we went in for the transfer. My sister was with me, and we were giggling as I told her I was going to pee on the table when the ultrasound tech pushed on my belly. Ugh.

They transferred 4 embryos. 2 8 cell, 1 6 cell and 1 4 cell that was a bit of a slacker, but the embryologist said looked so good they still wanted to transfer it.

Can you all keep all your fingers and toes crossed for me and my sister? Thank you all. She deserves some good news. So does her husband. And I really hope I can be the person that gives it to them.

And thus begins the 2 week wait. Beta #1: Monday Dec 15th.

It can't get here quick enough!


Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Thank You

So, here is my Thanksgiving post. I don't even want to write a post, because I love the one my husband wrote so much, and I don't want it to not be the one all the new readers read. He's a funny guy right? Yeah, I'm lucky, he's a good one!

Anyway, today was a lovely Thanksgiving feast! My mom made the turkey, stuffing, and sweet potato casserole. My sister brought the mashed potatoes, another type of stuffing, and Butternut Squash soup. I made some different veggies, a corn bread casserole and homemade Mac and Cheese. Add biscuits and cranberry jello mold and it was A LOT of food! And there were only 7 adults there! It was crazy. But nice to have such a mellow family Turkey Day. The kids would only eat the mashed potatoes, mac and cheese and this cranberry jello mold. Oh well, maybe turkey just isn't there thing.

We did the tradition of going around the table and saying what we are thankful for. There's so much, sometimes it's hard to remember. Especially when you feel like you are dealing with one bad thing after another. It's nice sometimes to stop and take a moment to appreciate the good. Like my husband, my amazing amazing husband. Seriously, I have no idea what I would do without that guy. He's my better half, my heart and soul, the love of my life. I know how lucky I am to have him, and I try to let him know, a lot. Obviously I'm thankful to my amazing kids. They make me smile and laugh on a daily basis, and definitely keep me young (and tired!) I'm thankful to my parents who have given me unwavering support and love throughout my life. I'm thankful to my siblings, who show me endless love.

I'm really really excited about the upcoming transfer. Oh, did I forget to mention that! We are in the home stretch (well, kinda). My sister's retrieval is set for Saturday! Wow. Which means if it's a Day 3 transfer it will be this Tuesday! Day 5 will be Thursday! Oh. My. God. How did we get here? The good news is that the end is in sight! The bad news is that I have to start my PIO shots on Saturday night. For those of you that aren't infertility savvy, that means Progesterone in oil. It's a big-ass shot that goes in, well, your ass (cheek). It's intra-muscular, so it's a long needle. And it's not all that much fun. But it's necessary. So, those start Saturday.

I'm really hoping to get a positive pregnancy test in the next few weeks. It would be such a great holiday gift for my sister. And she really deserves some good news right about now.

So, Happy Thanksgiving to you all! Hope you had a great day!


Friday, November 21, 2008

Dad Speaks

I want to do a post!

Well, do a post then…


Don’t yell at me.

I will yell at whomever I wish!

Take your “whomever” and stick it.

Listen; stop distracting me from my post. This is important!

We’ll see…

There you go again, undermining my posting ability!

You are still yelling.

YOU are yelling!


Are TOO!

Wow, I’m sorry you had to read through all of that. The “terrible twos”, as they are commonly called, are rapidly approaching and I feel like I’m in the middle of an argument at all hours, even with myself. Mind you, our kids are not two, so if this isn’t the terrible twos yet, (the “Nightmarish Nineteen Months—es’s’seses?), then we are probably going to have to build an underground bunker and just ride out the entire year of 2009. Steel-enforced bunker. Radiation proof. Anyway, here are some examples of “(Pre) Terrible Twos (Coming this spring to Fox!)”

  • The Moop couldn’t stack three little Santa Claus figures on top of each other (which weren’t meant to be stacked anyway), so he threw himself face first on the ground and kicked his legs very hard. He also cried until he choked.
  • Boots tried to open the gate we have at the foot of our stairs which was locked on purpose so that she shouldn’t be able to open it. After 10 seconds of attempting to open the locked gate, she yelled very loudly and then grabbed Moop in a bear hug, head butting him repeatedly until he cried.
  • Both Boots and the Moop scream “MINE!” reflexively, even if they aren’t pointing at anything specifically, and even if they are alone.
  • Boots very often points at Mommy and shouts “MINE!” when the Moop is sitting in her lap reading a book. Meaning, of course, that her voice has been modeled after a landMINE exploding in your brain cavity.
  • On random nights, Boots requires that she take her dinner while sitting in my lap facing me. She refuses to sit in a common high chair like the peasant children do. She will then accept bites of food of her choosing, which she then will chew slowly while resting her head on my shoulder. While this happens, the Moop eats a few bites of something, and then takes his hand and sweeps all other bites of food onto the floor while farting and laughing. Come to think of it, he probably got that from me. I’ll let that slide.
  • The Moop will seek out any button that runs any type of electrical equipment and then proceed to turn it on and off 368 times until the button offers its letter of resignation moves on to greener pastures.
  • The Boots will wake up at 5:00 am on some mornings and begin to serenade the house with a song she wrote that contains the names of every object she has ever seen, or any person she has ever met. “Mommy, Daddy, Apple, Puppy…” and so on until my fingers are pressed so far into my ears the tips touch each other somewhere near the part of my brain responsible for finding my car keys.
  • When it is time to leave for daycare in the morning, Boots will streak through the house looking for a hiding place rather than getting her shoes for me. That leaves me stalking through the house carrying two tiny pink sneakers looking for a pair of midget eyes and a tuft of hair.
  • We have approximately 9,321 children’s books in our living room. When Boots decides it is book reading time, she points at the massive book pile and says “Mine?” That leaves me to take a book, hold it up to her and ask “This one?” She will then most likely say “No?” This series of escalating questions usually ends with me holding up all 9,321 books in turn leading me back to the first book, which is the one she wanted all along. By this time, however, I have arthritis and the Moop has already applied for college.

I love being a Dad; I really do. More often than not, I find myself LOL-ing and ROFLMAO-ing and other internet idiocies. (And really, if people LOL-ed as often in real life as they do on the internet, there would be about 10,000,000,000 people being evaluated for psychological problems. “How was work today? LOL!!!” “It was OK… ROFLMAO!!!1!11!” “I drank coffee! *choking from laughing so hard*” Seriously, take it down a notch, internet chatters. You aren’t that happy. You just aren’t.) As a parent, I feel like I’m allowed to be annoyed sometimes. My sleep patterns are constantly messed with, and I am constantly told how much I am loved by a giant purple dinosaur, which is exactly as disconcerting as it sounds.

I do know that my kids are growing up entirely too fast. The other day, Moop helped me figure out the new tax laws, and I was all like “Wha?!?!?” and he was all like “PUPPY!” and then I was all “Dude!” Strangely enough, I followed everything he said, and I guess in the end that’s what being a parent is: Understanding your kids even if they are speaking gibberish. If I get annoyed, I’ll blame it on a lack of sleep. If I get a bigger tax refund, I’ll thank the Moop, because he is a tax genius. If I stumble upon Middle Earth one day, I’ll thank Boots because she is a mischievous hobbit. If I survive the teenage years, I’ll thank myself with a hearty handshake and a “Well done, sir!” which will probably put me in line with the other 10,000,000,000 people being mentally evaluated, and that suits me just fine.

Sunday, November 16, 2008


Sorry about that. It's been a long week and a half. I've been really sick. First, I had a cold that just would not go away. Finally the Dr decided maybe it was more than a cold and put me on antibiotics and some other thing. It finally kicked whatever I hadd out of my system. But not before TOTALLY screwing up my stomach. So yeah, it's been fun. Blech.

On the cycle front, I finished my week and a day of doing my lupron, and went on Friday for my first ultrasound and bloodwork. All looked good. Lining was nice and thing and ready to be plumped up! Ovaries were suppressed. They lowered by dosage of Lupron, from 10 to 5, and now I'm taking Estrace twice a day. I go back Tuesday for my next ultrasound and bloodwork. My sister started her shots too ... so I think we are still on schedule for her retrieval somewhere around Turkey day.

I'm tired and honestly don't feel like doing a longer update, even if I should. But I will leave you with some super adorable pics of the twins. They had their "school" picture a few weeks ago, and we just got them. I can't get over how OLD they look. I have realized, as much as I don't want to admit it, that I do not have babies anymore. I have toddlers. I'm not ready.

Here is Boots channeling her inner Pebbles Flintstone.
The Boot

And here is Mr Moop looking cute as ever. They combed his hair forward, and it just looks too funny!
The Moop

And lastly, the two of them together. They really are beyond cute. I have no idea how the photographer was able to get a picture of them together where they actually both looked at him! But I'm glad he did!
The Moop


Friday, November 7, 2008

Shot Night #2

We had the life insurance guy come yesterday, since DH and I don't have life insurance outside of from our work. So we really needed to get that taken care of. But the appt ran really long, and we were watching the clock, because the nurse told me to do my shot between 7-9pm. We just made it at 845pm. It was so easy really. And I've done these tiny shots before, and yet, I still was slightly stressed about it. Totally no big deal physically, but kind of a big deal mentally. It's the start of the cycle. I'm excited, nervous, scared, and mostly really really really wishing with all my heart that it will work.

Ok, took a break from writing this post to do shot #2. All went well. DH does the shots, even though they are easy. This way I can just watch tv and not pay attention to all the goings on. hehe. He's the best.

I'm still slightly sick. It's been lingering for a week, and it's VERY annoying. I want it to go away.

Did I mention that I'm in the middle of the reading the Twilight series and I really love it? I need to find someone who will go see the movie with me, because I know DH will so not be into it.

I have a headache, so this post will be a short one. 2 shots down, many to go! Supress ovaries, suppress!


Wednesday, November 5, 2008

So much going on ...

I'm sorry I've been slacking. I'm sick AGAIN! I'm seriously so sick of being sick. I'm getting sick more than the kids!

Halloween was totally low key over here. We left work early on Friday to go to the kids Halloween parade at daycare. Needless to say, it didn't go smoothly. The older kids were fine ... but the younger ones didn't really know that to do, and once Boots and Moop say us, they ran over, and didn't want to stay in the parade and kept crying until we picked them up. Chaos at it's best. We literally got no pictures from the parade. Then we came home and they ran around the yard in their costumes looking so cute and playing with their pumpkins. We didn't take them trick or treating. They are too young and definitely don't need the candy. Plus, we wanted to keep them on schedule with dinner, baths and bed. Next year for sure we will take them trick or treating!

Here's Moop making a funny face on the front steps

Eeyore Moop

And here's me and the Boot

Mommy and Boots

Here's the two of 'em lounging on the front steps

Mommy and Boots

And this last one makes me laugh. It's been a long day for Mr Moop

Mr Moop

Now, on a very exciting and terrifying note, I got my meds in the mail yesterday! I forgot how big those damn PIO needles are! Oh man, those are so my least favorite shots EVER. But for such a good cause. 8-)

Tomorrow is the day. Seems like we've been talking about it forever. Tomorrow night I start my Lupron shots and will start this surrogacy journey. Holy crap. Hopefully I will be pregnant soon. Woo hoo!


Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Our Fun Weekend

It's been a long weekend. Friday night I was pretty beat, since I was up with Boots since 5am. She decided that was a good time to wake up. So I snuck her into the spare room and tried to get her to go back to sleep with me ... but no go. She was up, and just wanted to chit chat and watch Tigger and Pooh. So I made it through work on Friday ... and I couldn't get to sleep fast enough that night.

Saturday she was up again at 5am. Lucky for me, it was my turn to sleep in, and DH's turn to get up with them. So he was up from 5am on ... I ended up sleeping in until like 8am, which doesn't seem like much, but it was!! Especially considering I went to bed at like 10pm the night before.

We went to music class on Saturday, and ran a few errands, and then came home and put the kids down for a nap. Boots took a good 2.5 hour one, and so did DH. Once everyone woke up, we got ready for my cousin's halloween party. We did a family costume ... I was Wilma Flintstone, DH was Fred, and the twins were Pebbles and Bam Bam ... they were so cute. I'm really annoyed right now, because I have pictures to share with you, and shutterfly is not working!! Blech! And to make matters worse, I didn't get one picture of the 4 of us together! But my cousins did, so hopefully they can forward some over so I can post them! The party was fun, if not certainly chaotic ... there were a LOT of kids there! Here's a few pics I snapped of the family before and during the party.

Lady Boots looking cute as little Pebbles Flintstone.


Mr Moop being a super cute Bam Bam Rubble.

Bam BamBam Bam

Now, the kids are also going to be Eeyore and Piglet at daycare on Friday for Halloween. We found the cosumes in our basement a few weeks ago. My cousin has triplets that are exactly 4 years older than the twins. So she had given me a whole bunch of stuff, and we found Tigger, Eeyore and Piglet costumes. So cute! Here are a few pics from us trying the costumes on.

The Sweetest Piglet you have ever seen.


And look at this Eeyore. Seriously, he is a chubby Moop.


DH and I played Rock Band 2 Saturday night for a few hours, and then off to bed I went. Only to be woken up by that Boot at 5am again. Seriously, this crap is getting old.

My parents and sister and Ant came over on Sunday for the day, my mom brought her homemade sauce and meatballs and sausage. It was super delish, and we all ate a lot like piggies. The kids were beyond adorable as they proudly showed their support of the NY Giants. And they certainly were lucky helping the Giants win the game!


Finally, DH brought Halloween cupcakes for dessert the other night. Here is the main difference between my kids. Look at my dainty little lady eating a cupcake. She kept putting one finger in the icing and eating very sweetly.

Her brother on the other hand? Not so much.


Monday, October 27, 2008 sucks

I want to put up a new post. I want to have one with tons of pictures from the Halloween party we went to this weekend. But isn't working, and I'm annoyed. It's not working today, it wasn't working yesterday. And I'm pissed. So that's that.

In lieu of that, you will get me doing a meme that I like and have seen on a bunch of other blogs. Here's the rules:

A) Go to Music Outfitters.

B) In the search function, enter the year you graduated from high school. Get the list of the 100 most popular songs of that year.

C) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you hate, and underline or italicize your favorite. Do nothing to those you don’t remember or don’t care about.

1. End Of The Road, Boyz II Men
2. Baby Got Back, Sir Mix A-lot
3. Jump, Kris Kross
4. Save The Best For Last, Vanessa Williams
5. Baby-Baby-Baby, TLC
6. Tears In Heaven, Eric Clapton
7. My Lovin' (You're Never Gonna Get It), En Vogue
8. Under The Bridge, Red Hot Chili Peppers
9. All 4 Love, Color Me Badd
10. Just Another Day, Jon Secada
11. I Love Your Smile, Shanice
12. To Be With You, Mr. Big
13. I'm Too Sexy, Right Said Fred
14. Black Or White, Michael Jackson
15. Achy Breaky Heart, Billy Ray Cyrus
16. I'll Be There, Mariah Carey
17. November Rain, Guns N' Roses
18. Life Is A Highway, Tom Cochrane
19. Remember The Time, Michael Jackson
20. Finally, CeCe Peniston
21. This Used To Be My Playground, Madonna
22. Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough, Patty Smyth
23. Can't Let Go, Mariah Carey
24. Jump Around, House Of Pain
25. Diamonds and Pearls, Prince and The N.P.G.
26. Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me, George Michael and Elton John
27. Masterpiece, Atlantic Starr
28. If You Asked Me To, Celine Dion
29. Giving Him Something He Can Feel, En Vogue
30. Live and Learn, Joe Public
31. Come and Talk To Me, Jodeci
32. Smells Like Teen Spirit, Nirvana
33. Humpin' Around, Bobby Brown
34. Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover, Sophie B. Hawkins
35. Tell Me What You Want Me To Do, Teven Campbell
36. Ain't 2 Proud 2 Beg, TLC
37. It's So Hard To Say Goodbye To Yesterday, Boyz II Men
38. Move This, Technotronic
39. Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen
40. Tennessee, Arrested Development
41. The Best Things In Life Are Free, Luther Vandross and Janet Jackson
42. Make It Happen, Mariah Carey
43. The One, Elton John
44. Set Adrift On Memory Bliss, P.M. Dawn
45. Stay, Shakespear's Sister
46. 2 Legit 2 Quit, Hammer
47. Please Don't Go, K.W.S.
48. Breakin' My Heart (Pretty Brown Eyes), Mint Condition
49. Wishing On A Star, Cover Girls
50. She's Playing Hard To Get, Hi-Five
51. I'd Die Without You, P.M. Dawn
52. Good For Me, Amy Grant
53. All I Want, Toad The Wet Sprocket
54. When A Man Loves A Woman, Michael Bolton
55. I Can't Dance, Genesis
56. Hazard, Richard Marx
57. Mysterious Ways, U2
58. Too Funky, George Michael
59. How Do You Talk To An Angel, Heights
60. One, U2
61. Keep On Walkin', CeCe Peniston
62. Hold On My Heart, Genesis
63. The Way I Feel About You, Karyn White
64. Beauty and The Beast, Calms Dion and Peabo Bryson
65. Warm It Up, Kris Kross
66. In The Closet, Michael Jackson
67. People Everyday, Arrested Development
68. No Son Of Nine, Genesis
69. Wildside, Marky Mark and The Funky Bunch
70. Do I Have To Say The Words?, Bryan Adams
71. Friday I'm In Love, Cure
72. Everything About You, Ugly Kid Joe
73. Blowing Kisses In The Wind, Paula Abdul
74. Thought I'd Died and Gone To Heaven, Bryan Adams
75. Rhythm Is A Dancer, Snap
76. Addams Groove, Hammer
77. Missing You Now, Michael Bolton
78. Back To The Hotel, N2Deep
79. Everything Changes, Kathy Troccoli
80. Have You Ever Needed Somone So Bad, Def Leppard
81. Take This Heart, Richard Marx
82. When I Look Into Your Eyes, Firehouse
83. I Wanna Love You, Jade
84. Uhh Ahh, Boyz II Men
85. Real Love, Mary J. Blige
86. Justified and Ancient, The KLF
87. Slow Motion, Color Me Badd
88. What About Your Friends, TLC
89. Thinkin' Back, Color Me Badd
90. Would I Lie To You?, Charles and Eddie
91. That's What Love Is For, Amy Grant
92. Keep Coming Back, Richard Marx
93. Free Your Mind, En Vogue
94. Keep It Comin', Keith Sweat
95. Just Take My Heart, Mr. Big
96. I Will Remember You, Amy Grant
97. We Got A Love Thang, CeCe Peniston
98. Let's Get Rocked, Def Leppard
99. They Want EFX, Das EFX
100. I Can't Make You Love Me, Bonnie Raitt

Wow! How is it that I have no idea what half of these songs are? I guess I was too busy listening to GOOD music ... most of which is NOT listed here. Oh well, Baby Got Back could be the best song ever!


Thursday, October 23, 2008

I've been tagged!

So Ginny over at Mom of 2 Dancers tagged me. I think I've done this one before, but I'll do it again. The hard part is coming up with 7 facts!

The rules are:
1. To link the tagger and provide the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving names as well as links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

Ok ... here we go:

1. I am voting for Obama. In the past, I've considered myself a Republican. I'm embarrassed to admit I voted for GWB. Please don't hurt me. But I just can't vote Republican year. I just can't. I don't love Obama. Neither of these candidates are my dream candidates, but Obama is more in line with how I feel. He's made me want to be a better person, to be my brother's keeper, and take help take care of this world for my children. So he gets my vote, in a state that would go to him anyway, but I don't care, I'm voting.

2. I wish I lived in CA so I could vote No on Prop 8. I have never in my life heard a good reason for being against gay marriage. NEVER. And please don't tell me because it's in the Bible, because I will refer you to #3 on my list. But it's not a good reason. I don't understand why gay marriage being legal would in any way threaten the sanctity of marriage. Because it's not like us heterosexuals are doing so great in the marriage thing. It's discriminatory, and I honestly don't understand how anyone can think it's ok to offer up a certain set of rights to themselves, but not to someone else of a different sexual orientation.

3. I'm an atheist. I intend on raising super adorable baby atheists as well. So at least we will all end up in hell together.

4. I love the Counting Crows, and me and DH are going to see them next week in concert. I'm super excited.

5. I have no close girlfriends from college. All of my girlfriends I met in high school. When I went away to college, I was friends with girls, but none of them stayed apart of my life. But I still talk to my 4 best guy friends from college (and I married one of them!)

6. As much as I bitch about New Jersey, I love living here. I love the change of seasons, I love the location, to close to NYC, so close to the beach. I love the fast pace of the lifestyle and the people. I honestly can't imagine living anywhere else.

7. Me and my sister are obsessed with thumbs. She is going to laugh when she reads this. I don't really know how to explain it, but there are certain thumbs we dislike. And that's all I can really say about it, because there isn't a good way to explain.

8. I'm adding another one because it's my blog, and I can. Although it's not much of a secret. I love my sister. She's my best friend, and I honestly so excited to start this journey with her. I hope I do her proud, I really do.

On the surrogacy front, as soon as I get my period, I start my BCPs. Isn't it funny how an IVF cycle always starts with birth control pills? Sooooo ironic.

Ok, now I have to tag 7 people. I'm going to follow Ginny's lead and tag 7 new blogs that I'm just reading for the first time via ICLW.

Our Surrogacy Adventure
Sticky Feet: Part Deux
Who Shot My Stork?
Kicking You From The Inside
Bee in the Bonnet
Maybe it's just me ...


Tuesday, October 21, 2008


So, it's the beginning of ICLW and I figured it would probably help to give a quick background to any newcomers to my blog.

I'm Caba. I'm 34, and have been happily married to my DH for 5 years (in December). We started TTC about a year later, and nothing happened. After a year of trying/testing, we found out we had a whole slew of issues, and IVF/ICSI was the road we were going to have to go down. We consider ourselves extremely lucky to have been successful on our first cycle. Two embies in, two babies out. That would be our little lady, Boots, and our little gentleman, Mr Moop. They are 18 months and nothing but trouble. But wonderful trouble.

This blog was never a ttc blog. I started it after the twins were born. It has slightly morphed into being a little bit about me, but mostly about the kids. It's going to go through another morphing again, as I start the next very very exciting journey of my life.

My sister is my best friend and one of the most important people in my life. I talk to her every single day, and see her almost every day. Although I know that when she stops by every day it has nothing to do with me and everything to do with Boots and the Moop. Regardless of that, my sister has had a bit of a journey. The details will be hazy, as it's not my story to tell. But she has been dealing with infertility for a long time as well. But recently was diagnosed with breast cancer. Thankfully it was found early and she will be fine. But her cancer was estrogen driven, and she still needs to go through radiation. So when all is done, her doctors all agree that she should never get pregnant. This is where I come in.

I have offered to be a gestational carrier for her and her husband. They honored me by agreeing. We are starting this amazing journey and all very excited. They will be doing a fresh IVF cycle with her eggs and her husbands sperm, and I'm just offering up a uterus for nine months, give or take. We had our "All Day" at the clinic today and things look really good. Looks like we will be cycling late November/ Early December. So this blog will turn into a lot of the surrogacy story.

Thanks for stopping by, and I hope you continue to check in!


Sunday, October 19, 2008

Sweet Silence ...

What a nice weekend we had. I hate when it ends. Work stinks. Friday night I went to a jewelry party. It was mellow, not too many people there. Ate some yummy apps, bought some jewelry, and went home. My LOVELY husband allowed me to sleep in on Saturday. Then me and my sister took the kids to music class and out to lunch.

As soon as they woke up from their nap, we packed up all their stuff, and brought them over to Grandma and Opa's house! YEAH! My parents love keeping them for the night, and we love to get rid of them! Awww, I'm teasing! But everyone loves a quiet house! We dropped them off around 4pm, and came home to relax for a while before heading out to my friend Michele's for a dinner party. It was a really nice time ... There were four couples, everyone made (or bought) something, and we just drank and ate like piggies and just relaxed. Michele shipped her son out for the night too, so it was nice for us not to be worried about having the get up early with the kids.

Here is a pic of me and Joan relaxing after the fat meal!

We got home around midnight, and I woke up at 9am to a completely quiet house. It was SO nice. We went out to breakfast, went to Best.Buy and bought Rock.Band 2! Woo hoo ... we'll have to play that later this week. Then we lounged in bed and watched tv and watched the Giants before going to my parents around 4pm.

The kids were really happy to see us ... and it's amazing how much we missed them in a 24 hour period. Crazy. It really is. Here is a cute pic I snapped of the Moop at my parents, and a picture of Hailey chillin' on her rocking horse.

And a quick update on the gestational carrier-to-be front. Things are moving along great! We have what they call an "All Day" at our clinic this Tuesday. Me and DH and my sis and her husband have to go all day, and meet with doctors and psychologists and I have to go through a bunch of tests and stuff. The contract is done, and we just need to sign it and get it in.

It's really going to happen, and I'm beyond excited. I'm so honored that my sister is trusting me with such a huge thing, and I only hope I can do her and her husband proud. I'll keep you updated after the All Day to let you know of the cycle schedule. It's so crazy. Yeah!


Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Busy Weekend ...

What a beautiful weekend it was here!! We had a really fun filled weekend. Saturday we went to the Philadelphia Zoo and met up with some mommies from the Twinstuff. It was such a gorgeous day, and the kids really enjoyed it! They especially loved the monkeys and the duck pond and the petting zoo. Here's a big gorilla that Boots liked.
Big Gorilla

Here's a cute pic of the Boots staring into the camera.
Lady Boots

And my handsome dude!
Mr Dude

The kids were really good at the zoo, but passed out as soon as we got in the car. Unfortunately now that the car seats are facing forward and not as reclined, the nap didn't last very long. So they had like a total of 30 minute nap. By the time we got home, it was too late to put them down. We even tried, but they wouldn't fall asleep. But they handled it well, but passed out quickly at bedtime.

Then on Sunday we went pumpkin picking with my friend Michele, her husband, and her son Michael, who is a month younger than the twins. It was fun. The kids loved seeing all the pumpkins, and kept yelling "Whoa!" every time they saw a bunch of pumpkins. We picked some little pumpkins, spent some time at the petting zoo, and conked out again on the ride home.

Here's Boots picking her pumpkin out of the patch.
Little pumpkin picker

And Mr Moop checking a pumpkin out.
Little Pumpkin Inspector

Here's a cute one of me and kids. Boots' face is just precious! It's her "Are you kidding me??" look ...
Mommy and the kids

And here she is, showing her cute smile!
Mommy and Boots

And here she is again, with Daddy.
Daddy and Boots

Later Sunday night we went to my parents for dinner. I got this great picture of my sister, her husband and the Moop cuddling.
Chris, Ant, Moop

So, I know I mentioned about my sister's cancer diagnosis. She has finished with her lumpectomy and is going to be starting her follow up treatment in the upcoming months. She will have to do radiation and medication, but we aren't sure about chemo yet.

But more excitingly, I might be lucky enough to give her and her husband a very very special gift. Because her cancer was estrogen driven, she can't ever get pregnant. But I can. For her. With her genetic child and me as the gestational carrier. I'm so excited I can't even talk about it.

But I had to share.


Thursday, October 9, 2008

18 months

So, I guess when I wasn't paying attention, my babies turned 18 months old! What the heck happened to those little tiny peanuts? Now they run around the house like crazy troublemakers!

18 month stats:

Mr Moop
Weight - 29lbs 15oz (91%)
Height - 35 inches (97%)
Head - 19 (65%)

Weight - 23lbs 5oz (35%)
Height - 33 1/2 inches (93%)
Head - 18 1/4 (45%)

We totally grow tall kids! I'm about 5'9'' and DH is 6'1'' so I guess it makes sense. Besides that, they got their flu shots, and DTAP shot, and are doing well. Lots of words, lots of understand. It's really cool to see how much they grow and change, and so quickly.

I am totally sick, and have been for a while now. I have this sucky cold that I just can not kick. Thankfully my family just ROCKS and my sister and her husband were over all day Sunday hanging out and then last night my mom, bro and sis took the kids out to dinner so DH and I could relax cause I just felt SO crappy after work. Ugh. I really need this to go away. We are supposed to be meeting up with some members off my twin site this weekend for a Philly Zoo day and I don't want to have to miss it.

So, without futher ado, PICTURES! Here is Ms Boots with Grandma
Boots and Grandma

and Mr Moop laughing at Uncle Ants goatee
Moop and Uncle Ant

Aunt Chrissy brought over some cupcakes from Costco ... holy crap were they good! They were freakin' enormous! So we split one between the kids, and needless to say, they really liked them!
Mr Moops big smile
Mr Moops big smile

And here's a picture I love of Mr Moop with his cool shades on.
Mr Moops big smile

And Boots trying to bust into my bedroom ...

As you can tell from my pictures, Moops hair is out of control. I love it. I honestly do not want to cut it yet. Obviously I will have to. Eventually. But not now. It is funny when we give them a bath though. He has SO much hair. For your viewing pleasure ... Moop, prior to having his hair wet ...

Here is Daddy after sculpting Moops hair into a shark fin.

And after rinsing his hair. Look how long it is, as it hangs over his shoulder.